Happy 1st Birthday

It's so hard to "celebrate" today, but we want to celebrate our sweet little girl who would be 1 today. Of course I would rather be planning her party, waking her up to sing to her, watching her smash cake for the first time, and seeing all the things a 1-year-old can do. I wonder if she'd be walking yet, if her hair would be blonde and curly, what toys she'd be playing with, and how she'd get along with her brother. But I have to trust that she's in the best place she can be, knowing that her Heavenly Father is caring for her even better than I could. That's so hard to fathom....but it gives me peace to know that as much as I love her, He somehow loves her even more.

When we ask Jackson where Reagan is, he says "taking care of Jesus." At some point we'll correct him, or he'll learn to turn it around, but for now I love to hear that.

We will be going to the cemetery today to take balloons and "send them to Heaven" as Jackson says. We want to celebrate her all day today and tomorrow, as we remember the day we met her, the special moments we got to share, the way it felt to have her in our arms, the little sounds she made, and how strong she was.

We want to share her with as many people as we can, so everyone might know what a blessing she was and could maybe be changed by her like we were. We've posted her slideshow here. It's about 9 minutes long, so if you have some time, we'd love for you to see our little girl, celebrate her in some way, and thank our loving Father for caring for her and healing her in the best way we can imagine.

Revelation 21:1-4 "He will wipe every tear from their eyes...there will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."

Click here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yu2H2uQTxx8